It was a moment of holding back tears because of how dramatically our lives have changed this year.
I had gotten a text from KK earlier last week, saying “GNO Friday night!” Honestly, I didn’t even reply back to her. It just depressed me too much. I should have, I know that, but it’s just hard to tell them I just can’t be there. It’s just not possible for me to drive 4 hours for a night out with the girls, no matter how much I want to.
I know they still invite me to keep me included, and for that I’m grateful…but it makes me miss my friends so much more. And by the end of the week, although the text was still there, I had mostly forgotten about it.
And then Chelle started posting mobile pictures of the girls during their GNO on her Facebook page.
If I had been smart, I would have just shut down the computer. But I didn’t, and I looked at every picture she posted. Even commented on a few. After that, I missed being a part of them so much I couldn’t stand it.
I woke up Saturday morning with my phone buzzing. I had gotten texts from Shan and Chelle, telling me they missed me, and then Chelle had sent an email with a video from her cell phone attached to it. The video showed all the girls around the table, calling out “Hey” to me (some using their favorite nicknames for me) and choruses of “We miss you!” I sat right there at the table and cried after I watched it! But it really did make me feel so much better.
I was going to try to upload it here, but I couldn’t get it to work. Oh well…just imagine a cell phone video camera whirling around a table, loud music playing in the background, and a bunch of girls yelling stuff out!